So we have a baby 11 months after i got married to my husband... i was so happy and excited that time... u know for being a mother...
I raised my first son without any problem...he was so easy to handle and i was so happy to have him....
Later i thought... let's have another baby.. since Benjamin (my son) was always play alone.. so i thought if he has a brother or sister.. he will have someone to play with...
So we have another baby when Benjamin not yet 3 ( a few months away from 3) and raised Aleesya (my daughter) was not difficult too... although she always woke up in the middle of the night.. and made me like a zombie in the morning.. but i guess that's OK.. because other parents also suffered the same things.. so it's normal..
If i may tell you.. raised a kid when they were born until they reach 5-6 years old.. was amazing (my son is 5 years old now).. you can do a lot of things with them.. and in fact you can let out the child that stuck inside you while you were with your kids.. they always love to see their mother going crazy with them.. u know.. play with them.. enjoy the cartoons with them.. and in fact enjoy life with them...
However.. as they grew bigger.. and older.. i mean when they start to enter primary school.. or if you serious about education( like me) your standard will be a bit higher.. which is when ur kids enter kindergarten.. you will start to worried about them.. about their education.. and their social life... Like me.. i was worried when my kids cant read.. there was once i went to his school for report card. and the teacher said that Benjamin was a little bit behind then others since he always skipped school ( that was my fault) , always come to school late ( that was his father's fault) and always sleepy in school... so he cannot enjoy his school.. and that was one of the reason why he left behind.. hearing that.. i was so frustrated.. i asked my self.. why was that happened? i always monitored him at home.. i mean do the reading with him.. but still he was left behind..
So started from that tragedy.. i told myself.. i have to work really hard on the kids..i have to make sure he did the reading every single day.. asked him to do math exercises everyday.. LESS TV and LESS YOUTUBE... i did all this with a hope that he will excel in his study..it is not about get a good grade in the future.. but i really really want my kids know how to read.. how to do math.. because that's a basic knowledge.. and if i failed ... it is like i failed to be a parent! that's the way i see it!!!...
In two years time.. Benjamin has to attend primary school.. ohhhh.. that cause me a headache just to find which school is good for him.. u know.. we have a school in front of our apartment.. it was so near and if i send Benjamin there.. i can walk with him to school... however... based on my observation.. and i asked a few people.. that is not a good school..due to the social problem.. and most people that i asked around .. send their kids to a school which a bit distance from our apartment..and they have to hired a van driver to pick and send their kids to home and school.. so now i have to consider either to send my kids to a school which a bit distance.. and i have to spent extra money on the van driver.. OR i just have to close my eyes and send my kid to the school near the apartment... u know to make a decision is sooo damn hard.. because it involve your kid's future! it involve their life... the way i see it.. send my kid to school.. is like send them to a place that can change them to become either a good or bad person..it depend on the school.. so u tell me isnt it a hardest thing to decide..
That's enough about school OK??... OK... now as i see my kids grew bigger and bigger.. i started to think what will happen to them in the future.. as a parents we always give the best to them and in return we also hope a good thing from them right??... so due to this fact i started to think a lot about my kids.. about what will happen to them in the future.. and what can i do to make sure they can have a good future... what the best food for them.. so they can grow brighter... and the list goes on... and at the end of the day it always make me tired of thinking all those things.. and in fact i became too tired for being too worried about them and their future...
So now.. for those who want to have a baby.. here is my advise.. (nobody tell me about this).. to have a kid.. is not that hard.. but to raise one.. i mean to raise them to be a good person.. is a serious business! so if u want to be one.. make sure you prepare all the craziest issues that might stuck on your mind just because u worry too much about them.. you need to spent some of your time to check them on their homework, reading.. or other execise... .. u have to send them to other extra curriculum.. so they will not get bore just to study all the times.. u need to have a lot of money to send them to a good school ( i mean private school if u can afford) or to tuition class.. or music school.. ...and so on..but above it all.. u can enjoy yourself of being somebody's important.. you are so important in your kid's life.. and enjoy all the satisfaction when ur kid reach ur expectation.. heheheh
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